on the edge

What is this feeling that makes us lose focus ?
Why cant we control this desire of slow self destruction?
Who should we blaim ? our heart or our minds?
Who must we listen? our emotions or our dangerous beep which alarms most of the times you are around?

I know that it is not easy but we have to protect ourselves and if it is the only exit: run... run away from our emotional weakeness.

because living on the edge is really dangerous and stressful and sooner or later despite the exciemnt we regreat.

and our souls bleed ..
and our hearts cry..
and our friends suffer..
and our body rejects food..
and our joy to live disappear just because we are attracted to chaos.