Secret Smile

You walk , look back, bleed, look deeply in his eyes... he can´t read your soul. You are his shadow , follow him with your eyes, everywhere, you hide your feelings, disguise and hold yourself..
Your will is screaming inside.. desperately! Close your eyes : see your smile, your lips moving and saying I love you.
I misunderstood? I still feel your touch, my skin shivering.. what to do? I can't avoid feeling it, I can´t explain, it is more difficult now : your heart is bleeding , occupied, I have to swallow my love.
I struggle to hide it , I am jealous, it hurts, I am bleeding, thorns everywhere in my soul..
And you keep secret smiling ...kissing other lips and in your hands I can see my heart bumping.. fighting to survive,dying!