Undeclared Pain

F.. ! why do words have so much meaning for you and actions are so important, when you are not able , either to say words or to express your care and love?
This is crazy.. I am always trying to give you space, to reach your expectations, to fit in your world, to reflect and become a better person.. due to your love and care..
But why do you encourage me if you cant cope with it? when i got tired you said it was not like that.. that I was wrong you were so sweet..
I am responsible for what i captivated.. the thing is: are you?
What should I do? tell me .. I am just being who you wanted me to be..i am jsut showing you my world where people bleed because they love, where they are mean, because they love , they hurt you because they love!
And you know? when you hurt people, you say you are sorry, you write that you are sorry and you cope with the person´s pain.. you make everything to please, to heal.. you take better care then before you know.. otherwise , the pain is going to become an evil weapon and a bullet with pain, can make you bleed, but not only bleed but also die..!