Twilight Zone

I look at this place and ask : where? why is this happening ? and I can finally see, my eyes burn and there is no shadow anymore, bring me this shadow back, the real me hurts a lot ... the real world is like absinthe that has a bitter flavour inebriates and you feel like hallucinating...
You forget your "black and white world", and you see beyond...beyond eyes, clothes, houses... you see the real soul of people, their ugly thoughts , their list of bad wishes, their innerselves and their fight against themselves to keep their bond with this world.
You understand that they are looking for absolution, from their thoughts, guilty feelings and fears... they want to be forgiven, but what they do not know is that we are who we are and we cannot run away from this, and when we reach this point we must face it and stand for yourself.
Then the "coup de grâce" happens: I see myself being so selfish, so mean, so possessive , my thoughts!! wow!! Intriguing .. I see you , me , him , her, each one in a different hidden world, hiding feelings, due to its prohibition to feel, locked inside ourselves, captivity is the world.. and it hurts .. even in my hallucination world I bleed.
Pain is not exactly how to describe this feeling .. it is a boost of myself, and I finally return to my reality .. where the veil hides all...and then I realise that this is where I belong... and a feeling of loss overflows.. I open my eyes uncertain of what had happened, staggering, I walk away and I try to forget, but my body aches, there are bruises in each part of my beauty body... just to remind me that there is a world somewhere inside me that wants to blossom but that has to be hidden, till when I do not know.