Seixo life...

I am more aware of things.. yesterday  I saw a rock that is called seixo and I thought about my life...
Sometimes we just feel like being thrown and others we feel like being polished by everybody , kicks, pushes, deceives, bad-tempered moods, steps, ear pushings, accusations, falling downs and stand outs.
Th e curious about these is that they work..this pressure , deceptions , pains, all of them cooperate for the better of those who love God and respect the other ...
Today I feel like living in a roller coaster.. sometimes it is fun, sometimes disappointing. I feel dizzy today because I had to love and give it up..and today I do not know I can feel in your touch: passion, but i do not need it.. i want love, respect, and I have been before in this roller coaster stop and I hurt myself a lot...rolling!
Life: seixo life is what makes you choose what is best for you.. it moves you.. I am trying to find my stop.. trying to make my seixo continues spinning.. polishing.. But due to you I had to stop a little and think : What the hell am I doing here if I cant love and be loved?
Then somebody asks : at least you are alive.. surviving. Am I? Then I think about that Seixo again: rolling, rolling , rolling .. making my fears become certainty and bringing new ones..
Now I know : It will never end! 😕