I see evil people ..and ... You are one of them!

In wonderland world people can not see what i see: false pretensions , undercover reactions, hidden tests, run away from feelings, disguised pairs, foolish reasoning, contradictions and denial.
People are afraid of being too close, others are afraid of saying the truth, others are kissing one , thinking at the other, others are with those sad eyes , observing your moves and crawling for more than they can cope, others are making love with you and thinking at another person, and I?
I have tried to escape, and when I think I am away, I am there again trapped in your embrace, listening to your sutil and intriguing soul. Wondering where to hide? Is jealous a signal of love?
Not touching means something? facing your enemy is a challenge signal? touching somebody´s soul is cruel mainly when you have no preintensions of taking care when at the end you will abandon and find a silly explanation that doesnt convince nobody and jump off the boat, just because..
I am still bleeding , and your eyes are looking at me, no mercy anymore, your hand is in my wound , not pushing it softly, but your nails are stuck in my wound making the blood spils everywhere... I can't do anything , just stay there .. then you look at me and just say: I see evil people and I am one of them!
Before breathing and fighting for life again I think that I regreat of having loved yu .. it made me numb, you and others ate my flesh, drank my blood and you still laugh.. you exposed my failures, you let people laugh at me, you threw the first stone and I have no one to blame unless myself. How stupid I still am.. why cant you let me go? Why do you have to step over my scar that were almost healing? and I thought you were just a little person , that would understand my love.. and now the worst part is : you are everywhere in my life..I am tired of fighting to breath.. that´s good : yu are dying inside me, finally.. I am just giving up as you wanted! Due to yur love I was created, due to it I am dying.. and it is a relief. I mean it!